Where do mushrooms grow?

This morning I had yet another surprise in store for me. Yup! I opened another letter from the governement....I owe them some more! CRAP!!!

It really makes me just want to give up, throw in the towel.

I don't ask for much.

I'm really discouraged this time.

When I went through my divorce, MT paid me out...the Government took half. Half from $$ is dick all after you pay off credit cards and loans. I then was going forward living here in the Border Town and when I finally got ahead I get hit with this.

The good news is that I finally got my first very own credit card last week. Took me three years, but I finally got one....in my own name!!! Not the married last name, not with MT signing for me, but just me!

Now, I can book a room at a hotel. Try booking rooms with no credit card these days...YOU CAN'T! I would use Legs' c.c. and then when it was check out time I would pay cash. I can still pay cash, but I - me, can now book my own.

When I married at 19, I had no credit and when I divorced I had no credit...what did I need it for? Now....I know better!

But I am still plagued with this damn divorce. When will I be free?

.....Really, When will I be free?

It just gets to me after awhile...I just want to sit down and cry.

Sometimes...I just don't feel like fighting anymore.

For once, I would just like everything to fall in place and for it to be easy...not easy forever, but just easy for a little while...long enough so that I don't feel like this anymore...feeling useless, what's the point, who the hell cares, just feeling like $hit.

Whatever.....I've had it.

The Year of Being Me...better frickin' pick up!