Billy The Exterminator

I had a night off last night!!!

I was pretty excited...the GM said "go home Fairy Mae..." and Fairy Mae left on a dead run out the door.

I thought Buster and I could catch a bit of Billy when I got home, but alas they were all re-runs...

Im kinda stuck of some of that reality TV...its a shame really, but thats all thats ever on anymore when I get home.

The Amazing Race, Survivor, Billy, Hell's Kitchen, Kitchen Nightmares...ugggh. Can it be?

I really love Big Bang Theory but I can never catch it on time. Bones, Lie to Me, Law & Order UK and Los Angeles. I find if I miss too many, I can't catch up...

Do I really watch that much? I admit that I do have the TV on most of the time, but lots of times I am doing something else in another room and like it on for noise sake.

I did watch a movie the other day with a dog as the main character. I was about to change the channel when my dog, Effie caught sight of it and then I had to leave it there for her to watch. Since when does a dog lay infront of the TV and watch a two hour movie?

Seriously.

Came around

Well, the family came around and paid up!

This month apparently will be different.....we'll just see won't we!

Nothin to say

I got nuttin' to say today.

Well, I do, but I'm not gonna even start.

What good does it do, but make me even more miserable.

I'm taking the blogger day off to think things through....tomorrow is another day.

Still sick..

Well the troupes have rallied and have called mom and are paying her, but it was me who let them know just exactly what was going on. Why do I have to be the bitch all the time? Why do I always have to have them mad at me? It's their fault I am emailing them.

I facebooked them all and told them exactly how it was. I chose this method so it would be on black and white and they would have to read and absorb rather then glaze over my voice when I called.

I hate being the bad guy. At home they call me "the intimidator" and that's not fair.

Mom has made arrangements to have checks sent to her monthly...let's see if it happens shall we?

Now, everyone is pissed at me cuz once again FairyMae has stirred the pot.

Well, it was either that or find me literally in the nut house. Then who would bail them out!

Well, today starts off rather yucky. Let's see how the rest of it goes.

At least they all know what is what and what I am NOT willing to do anymore...Yay for me!

Sick, sad and tired.

Once again I am just sick.

I can't for the life of me figure out the mentality of others and it leads me to have ulcers, the shakes and sleepless nights.

I am truly sick and tired of covering other peoples asses. Once again, I have to drum up more then my fair share of money for feed for the horses. Not just mine but for two other people as well and it is very frustrating for me when I would dearly love to phone these two individuals up and give them an ultimatum, but my mother, who often wonders why people walk all over her, won't let me. Won't let me cause a stir, so instead, I get the panic phone calls on how are we gonna get more hay for the horses!

I am so sick and tired of seeing these two individuals spend all their extra money on cigarettes, purses, diet coke, junk food, oh the list could go on...when I have to leave my ulcer pills at the drugstore cuz the horses need food, when I don't get new glasses, when I can't fix the leaky seals on my car cuz I gotta feed their horses!...oh, I could go on. Then these two individuals bitch at me cuz my mom still hasn't fixed the 4x4 on the truck, still hasn't fixed the roof on the house, still hasn't fixed the broken fence....why? Because we are both paying for their horses. If it isn't feed, it's wormer, hoof trimming, which by the way, I do all of!

What's gonna happen next. I honestly don't think I can take much more.

I am going to Mexico in 13 days with Buster. I don't even know what I will be able to take for spending money because of these two selfish people.

"Oh, don't worry, Auntie Ruth and Suzanne will take care of it."

This is the mentality these two have and it has been so all of their lives and I am afraid while my mother is still alive it will never change. It will always be this way. The cycle will never be broken. Its like someone being beaten over and over and just can't get out. It's like an alcoholic that just can't stop drinking or a drug abuser....I don't ever see it changing and it is slowly killing me.

It makes me so sad sometimes....a person just gets their head above water and a shark comes by and yanks you back down, plays with you, and lets you gasp for air, in pain, then pulls you back under again.

Maybe that's why I have such a fear of sharks....because its a reminder of my own f'd up family....they wonder why I live soooo far away, and hate coming home.

For shammmmmme...

I am a bad, bad girl.

I feel guilty...well, almost. Ok, I do.

I have been very neglectful of my "lifelines."

I am sorry.

I am missing out on some really funny stuff and I am missing out on what's been happening in your lives.

I will try to keep up better.

Really.

Sorry.

Do you forgive me?

The Dog House

yup...its what I thought....I am in the dog house because of what happened here at work on Friday.

There are only a few people I hate in this world. Hate is a strong word. I hate both of them. Plain and simple.

These two people make my work place hell. I like my job, when they are not here. When they are here, they feed off of each other, they then gang up on a person, and let 'em have it.

I was getting the Christmas stuff from under the house seats...its a huge storage room and I hear both of them bitching to one another about the cleaning staff here. They bitched so much that they started to get riled up...their voices raised and they started to talk faster...and they were loud. They were crystal clear where I was. They didnt have a clue that I was there.

They are two of the most negative men I have ever encountered. They bitch everyone and anyone out. They are always right AND two shows that we had as regular bookings no longer book here because of them.

There have been two letters sent to the theatre about our back stage staff and how rude they are and nothing gets done.

I was once yelled at by the stage manager for touching the mail. I was about to mail all the letters until he barked "What the bloody hell business is it of your to have those?" I threw them at him and walked out the door....he followed me to MY office still beaking off to me about the damn mail. I have never touched the mail since. Our box office guru has to take them while I stand by her desk to answer the phones!

Instead...I get hauled in and am told to put my ego at the door! Are you kidding me?! My ego...I no longer have a spine let alone an ego! I am not a confrontational person, but tomorrows staff meeting could be interesting.

I have photo copied all my evidence and proof and am ready for the battle! I learned a few things when I was married to an RCMP!

What proof? OHHHH, I let an actor into the change room on Friday night! That was my downfall! The acting troupe have only rented the theatre for the past 2 days. They have the right to go where they want if back stage management is there, so I let her in. Boy, was that a mistake!
The stage manager kicked the actor out of the dressing room and came into my office and blasted me...I didnt back down and so therefore we now have a staff meeting tomorrow.

Yup.

Happy St' Patrick's Day!!

What a SIN!!!

I forgot to wear green today. I don't have one stitch of green on me at all! I feel kinda bad about it too. Oops! Well, I can leave work early, go home and put some green on. That may make me feel better about it. I do feel kinda guilty seeing as how I am a 1/4 Irish....sorry dad....wherever you are!