I just received a call from Legs this morning. He is on his way to see his cousin in Red Deer. He did tell me that he was going on a tear tonight with his friends, but will be leaving in decent time tomorrow for the Border City.
When he tells me he is going on a tear it bothers me somewhat. It bothers me because he CAN go on a tear. I want to and can't because living in the Border City, I don't know that many people and the ones I do know are...very attached to a significant other. I am too, but every once in awhile, I want to go out with just the girls. Trouble is, is that I have no girls to go out with! The girls that I am friends with have a family, or are in a "new" relationship and can't tear themselves away from their partner, or are in their early twenties and I when I go out with them, I feel like grama! They don't treat me like that of course, but that is how I feel.
Being in the mid to late thirties, divorced and no kids, it is hard to find someone to go "hang" with or to go play pool to "bullshit" with. I WANNA DO SOMETHING!!!
I hate living in the city for starters and on a Friday nite when I am "single" while my old man is away, well, I don't want to stay home sitting on the couch pretending I am "into" watching Medium or Ghost Whisperer!
Then when Legs comes home and tells me what fun he had with his friends, I get pissed off because I sat on the couch all friggin nite!
Is that wrong of me to feel that way. I don't feel 36. I feel 27/28!
I feel very alone sometimes.
When he tells me he is going on a tear it bothers me somewhat. It bothers me because he CAN go on a tear. I want to and can't because living in the Border City, I don't know that many people and the ones I do know are...very attached to a significant other. I am too, but every once in awhile, I want to go out with just the girls. Trouble is, is that I have no girls to go out with! The girls that I am friends with have a family, or are in a "new" relationship and can't tear themselves away from their partner, or are in their early twenties and I when I go out with them, I feel like grama! They don't treat me like that of course, but that is how I feel.
Being in the mid to late thirties, divorced and no kids, it is hard to find someone to go "hang" with or to go play pool to "bullshit" with. I WANNA DO SOMETHING!!!
I hate living in the city for starters and on a Friday nite when I am "single" while my old man is away, well, I don't want to stay home sitting on the couch pretending I am "into" watching Medium or Ghost Whisperer!
Then when Legs comes home and tells me what fun he had with his friends, I get pissed off because I sat on the couch all friggin nite!
Is that wrong of me to feel that way. I don't feel 36. I feel 27/28!
I feel very alone sometimes.
1 comment:
OMG this is the second post this week that I agree 100% with you, would you get out of my head.
(I think we are twins)
take care
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