Quote of the day.

The great thing about human language is that it prevents us from sticking to the matter at hand.

- Lewis Thomas

Week ahead

It was a very busy weekend here at work. We had the Ukrainian Dance Festival this weekend and WOW was their some talent! It was awesome to watch..however three days is more than enough for me.

Theatre week was interesting to say the least....as our beloved Forest Gump would say..and that's all I have to say about that.


Am hoping the week will pick up.

Ahhh...theatre life

I was able to get away to see Bruno perform last night. It was a great little play, with many laughs.

I did however get a little tipsy in the afternoon but by the time the curtain went up I was well on my way to sobering up. After the play we all attended the green room to await the performers. After they came in we all applauded them and gave them our words of praise. They really did a great job!

I also witnessed a dive bomb by our beloved Moustache Man who decided to float down a flight of stairs only to be stopped short by a wall! It was hilarious! He did make a great recovery and after the wall caught him, he straightened himself out and ever so nonchalantly entered the green room with all the grace and poise of a wet noodle! It killed me!

There was also some betting antics happening as well. I wonder how the Blonde Bomb will get herself out of this one!? She bet that LW couldn't catch something in his mouth by bouncing it off of the end of his toes. Well he caught it!! I think he's saving to cash his luck in at the end of the week.

Ahhhh I miss theatre so much! I just adore all those people who are involved with TS.

Now that I have my life back, I can start enjoying the things I used to. I am finding myself again, and I really like me.

Festival time

Well eventhough my weekend was horrible it is Festival time this week.

In all of this I am going to be able to see many, many friends, have a few wee "tini's". I wont be there for Wima's performance but will be able to see Bruno's. I am going to be at the Green Room Saturday night for the wrap up, even if it kills me to get there. Its only an hours drive so I will get there just when things start to get exciting!!

Ahhhh theatre people....I just love this time of year!

Just like in LA, Mexico...yadda, yadda, yadda

What happens at Festival....stays at Festival.

Easter..

Well it is Easter Monday and I might add that I was born on Easter Monday...ahh hem!

I had a shitty, shitty Easter. I lost one of my best friends on Saturday, a four legged friend, I lost my wonderful, patient, ever-willing Anna. I might add the vets here in the Border Town SUCK!!! Two vet business with about 4 to 5 vets at each business and not one could come out to put her to sleep. My brave better half, Legs came out and shot her. Yes, shot her! I have never in my years of owning horses, ever had to get one shot. I was and still am heart broken.

The vets however, did call back to see how I was making out. What the hell they cared about was beyond me! They wouldn't help me to begin with!

In the process, I was getting ready to go to the hell job and was in my good clothes standing out in the cold for about 6 hours with my horse. Needless to say my toes recieved the brunt of the cold in my stupid cowboy boots! But I am glad I was able to spend the last few hours with my friend.

"All animals are equal but some animals are more equal than others." George Orwell (1903-1950) "Animal Farm"

Motivation

No problem is too small or too trivial if we can really do something about it.

-Richard Feynman (1918-1988)

Educator & Physicist

The telly

Talked to my mother last night.

She is convinced that I am dying since I have been sick so much. Hmmmm....my being under the weather couldn't have ANYTHING to do with stress could it??!! And just whom would cause it??

I told her that I have already been to the doctor and to stop with the constant nagging. I am a big girl and I know when to see the doc! AND I am NOT dying.

Three days ago my cousin finally decided to call me. yay. This is how the conversation went....
take a guess who is who...

Hey

Hey how goes it?

okay, guess what... I got a minivan!

wow thats great. (Then you can come up to visit for a change.)

what are you doing april 22?

why?

Do you wanna meet me in Regina and go to puppetry of the penis?

Angela....did you call me?

yes.

why did you call me?

Cuz you can't call long distance.

Right. And what does that mean?

you can't afford it.

Right.
and what else does that mean?

you can't go to Regina.


Nuff said.......why do I bother....see takers, they are all takers....

However...I have secret that they don't know about ...teehee

Scales

ok. I am really getting ticked off. I have been exercising, I have been sick, I have been watching my food intake and still I am the same!

I have been the same weight for 4 weeks!! 4 WEEKS!!!!! WHAT THE HELL!!???

Mean while Wilma is taking off like you wouldn't believe. I'm not impressed that I have not been able to shed one pound in the last 4 weeks. AARRRGGGHHHHH!!!

Just can't get over it

Well, again I am heading home. I just can't seem to kick this stupid flold!! This time its "the sweats", sore throat, and soooo tired!! along with the standard headache, which for me ALWAYS turns into a migraine!!, not to mention a really sore neck and shoulders. Grrrr.... I am not impressed because tonight Alberta Opera is here doing their rendition of Cinderella. I was really looking forward to this but, maybe next time for me.

I have to be well for Battletown next week when I will see Wilma and Bruno, along with many, many others! It is long overdue! I am heading down on Monday to see Bruno in his production, then again on Thursday then again on Saturday. That darn work thing is preventing me from staying all week!!

So, off I go to my little abode, only to hop into my happy clothes, try to scarf down some chicken noodle soup and then to get comfy on the couch with my glass of water, blanky and my pillow that grama made for me...and hopefully I can catch a wink or two. If I can't then I will have to bring out the drugs...good ole tylenol!!

Happy St' Patrick's Day!!

What a SIN!!!

I forgot to wear green today. I don't have one stitch of green on me at all! I feel kinda bad about it too. Oops! Well, I can leave work early, go home and put some green on. That may make me feel better about it. I do feel kinda guilty seeing as how I am a 1/4 Irish....sorry dad....wherever you are!

Missed it by that much!

No...I missed it! I missed Most Haunted Friday night!

Instead I went to the bar to listen to a band.

They were really good and apparently I missed out on a music video which was shot earlier. I laughed my ass off when I found that out. The creepy little man came over to our table and informed us that we missed out on it. I almost peed myself. I asked him with what production company he was with and he wouldnt answer me. That's when I started to laugh. By this time I had a few under my belt so it didn't take much. He got offended when I started to quiz him. He then left us alone. I mean why tell us? What a dip!

Anyway, the rest of the night was great. I got home at 2am and promptly hit the sack. Church was tomorrow. No headaches for me!!

It's Friday!!

Tonight is Friday Fright Nite!

There is a program, now, with time change I will have to be careful when it is on, but there is a t.v. program called "Most Haunted", it is shot in England and a bunch of people, including a medium, a skeptic, and of course the hostess and the camera crew, go around and film in these "haunted" castles. It is only on for an hour, but in that hour, I get SO scared! I mean tears run down my cheeks that is how scared I get. Sometimes they get things thrown at them. Sometimes things levitate and sometimes things thud and bang.

I am infatuated with the show, I guess it is because I am a believer and I do know these things happen. I know how these people feel, all the emotions and energy.

This is one show I hate missing.

Fed up!

I am going home...I am once again.....sick.

Dipshit

ok so I am a dorfface, a dipstick, a gibble but I just can't help it!

Yes, I love Survivor and the Amazing Race, Hell's Kitchen and Kitchen Nightmare's but Girlicious!! What the hell??

I just can not get away from watching that stupid show!!! Every time I turn on the boob tube...there it is Girlicious!!! and it's not just half way through the program, why watch it then...It is always starting...AND I have to watch it! It's ridiculous!!!

This week Robin even cried!! What the hell am I doing??!! I am soooooo pathetic.

Somebody slap me.

Good Grief Charlie Brown!

Last night was the last for farmsitting til the beginning of April. The past week was interesting because I was not alone. Normally both Betty and Bobby go together on their little excursions but this time Betty stayed home. It was rather an inconvenience because when I am by myself I come and go as I please. Do chores, then do whatever...not this time!

This time, was a challenge. First off, Betty was/is trying her hardest to convert me into a born again Christian. Now, I believe in God and I go to church but the last thing I do is to ram my religious beliefs on someone else. If they ask, then ok but even then, I don't get too deep. It's just not my thing to do that to someone.

Every night at the supper table we discussed verses in the Bible and had little discussions on them while we were watching...Dallas!! Cracks me up! Dallas!! What the?? Talk about morality!! Anyway....I decided to go to church with Betty rather than my normal church hoppers, Stifler's Mom and the rest of the crowd. (Oh, and let's not get into what she thought of my tattoos! I am ruining my temple! Tsk, tsk.)

3 hours later, church finally let out...that's right, I say 3! Then...of course we still discussed God on the 20 minute ride back to the farm. I later told Legs about this and he laughed his ass off. I saw no humour in any of it.

That was only this past Sunday.

Last week we were watching the boob tube at 6. Can't miss the news! I NEVER watch the news. NEVER! But....

For instance....On the news was a man who was fighting for his right to wear his turban rather than a helmet while riding his motorbike. I say wear the helmet, it may save your life. I do see his side too, that it is part of his religion. blah, blah. The man lost in court. Betty says "they" should all go back to where "they" came from. I was stunned! For Betty to be a born again Christian and to talk like that!! I never saw that side of her before. It was...I am speechless.

I'm sorry but I thought that if you are a Christian you are not to be judgemental. Prejudiced. I know this is a touchy subject for a whole lot of people but, I just had to blog about it.

My best friend in the whole wide world, the one who is fighting cancer right now, my blood sister, is East Indian and I think she is the best thing since sliced bread. Not one time have I ever thought of her as any other way besides my best childhood friend and we have been able to be there for each other since...well, for many years.

It was a real eye opener for me. I have had many reality checks this month and I really don't want anymore. I have had my fill. From my families disfunctional qualities which I was subjected to, to Betty's views on God, Christianity, and "those people", I have had my fill.

I don't want to hear anymore. I am gonna go back to my little one bedroom apartment in the Border Town and once again become a recluse. Watch my t.v. programs, read the papers on the internet, and listen to my music.

If I hear one more person tell me what I should believe, or what I should do with my life, or who I should or should not like, or who I should or should not talk to, I am gonna let them have it. I understand people have their own views and I am ok with that. That is what they think or believe in their hearts. I can respect that. But, it would be nice if other people would respect my views too, rather than try to brain wash me.

"You can only change yourself, you can't change others." It's a great saying. I find myself thinking it at least once a day.

Ka-bammm

I'm having another head explosion day today. I have so much in my head it wants to seep out but at the moment it's best if I just keep my mouth shut and try to keep it in!

What happened?

I have a friend that is on and off with me. Right now, it is off....I'm guessing.

She will call me and make dinner dates, pool dates, movie dates, then call my voice mail and leave a message saying that she can't make it. She doesn't even have the guts to talk to me personally.

I can't stand it. It is so high school.

I went to Mexico with her and her kids. I helped her out when things got rough with her and her ex husband. I looked after her kids!!

Now she has met some dude and her whole world now revolves around him. I understand that people grow and friends change because lifestyles change. I get that, but if you don't want to hang out, or catch up or whatever, then, cut the ties, break it off. Stop making dates then breaking them 1 hour before you are to go somewhere!! It's insane!

I have tried to still be her friend but I have had it. I see her parents and her kids more than I see her!

If you want nothing to do with me, then leave me alone. Don't call me to arrange something. Just leave it. Say hi when we see each other and move on!

When I do go in to her place of work, I am now to the point where I try to sneak in because if she sees me, she tries to tell me her life in minutes when I have not seen hide nor hair of her in months. It is too much!

If you are too busy for me than I would just like to be left alone. Just leave it at that. Nothing more, nothing less.

Second time around.

Well, I did it. I am taking on a second job. I am going back to the hell job.

It should be interesting seeing as how CB had a nervous break down of sorts since I was there last. Let's face it. There is no love lost between us. We have a mutual understanding. I don't piss her off and she doesn't piss me off. Simple.

I have had two shifts already without her. They have gone really well.

It is very stressful when you have a boss that is nuts. I mean really, she is on the edge of reason!

Let's see here. Three employees have quit since I was asked to hand in my letter of resignation. I never intended on quitting there, just bumping down to casual. But CB wanted my letter, so I gave it. She however, had no idea that three were about to quit. That helped send her over the edge. I think when she found out Pinkie had hired me back to help out on the weekend that they had no one, she flipped again. I felt bad for Pinkie. The District Manager came down and along with CB, they hauled Pinkie in and gave her a talking to. Pinkie is a fighter though, she stood her ground and all turned out ok in the end.

Me going back to the hell job should be interesting. I'm sure there will be more twists and turns as we go. But for now, I am gonna play it cool, try not to get into any trouble, although even breathing seems to start things off badly.

I do know this....jobs are a dime a dozen in this town. If it doesn't work out. I will go elsewhere.

popcorn blues? pop blues?

I went to the movies last night with Moegirl and we saw Jumper. There is sure to be a sequel the way it ended. It was pretty good.

I went in with Diet Pepsi and buttered popcorn. Normally I have popcorn at home au naturel with salt and pepper. Last night however, I had to have butter. You can not go to the movies with no butter on your popcorn. It's just not right.

This morning, I woke up at 8 am headed to the farm to do chores and man did I feel like crap. I felt like I was hung over...not sure if it was the diet pop or the popcorn. I normally have orange crush with my popcorn but am thinking it was the diet pop that made me feel like crap. Ya, it was the diet pop. Im stickin to the orange crush from now on.

Why am I so SLEEPY!!!!!!

I am at my desk trying to make up a flyer for the fall and I can hardly keep my eyes open!!

Good thing my deadline is JULY!!!

Zzzzzzzz....

Just another day

Well, it has been almost 1 month and I still have not heard from my family. My mom is the only person who calls. Nice....

What doesn't kill me makes me stronger I suppose.

I may forgive but I will not forget.

More things you did not know about me:

1) I hate the colour blue but wear it anyway, cuz I know it looks good on me.
2) I am German, Austrian, Irish and French - a mix if you will - May explain my temper and stubborness!
3). My grapa and I used to pick up hitchhikers in the summer and take them to the farm for the weekend to help with haying, pay them and then take them to the bus, pay for a bus ticket and off they would go. We met some great people.
4). People take advantage of me. I know this!
5). I can easily be intimidated. I know this too!
6). Oprah and Sally Jessy offered to help find my father for me. I said no thanks.
7). I love to paint and have taken classes from Ken Lonechild and the late Bill Haussekar.
8). I love Saskatchewan and the people who live here.

missed

Where does the time go? My day is slipping by and I don't know what I have done.

I am farm sitting for the week and have missed my weigh in. I will have to report tomorrow with my findings. I am hoping that all this fork lifting will have helped although I have my doubts!

I do know though, that I have talked on the phone ALOT today.

whats the world coming to?

Well, I got my first hate mail via Facebook about the comment I made over the Kalan Porter concert the other night. I am happy that other people enjoy Canadian Talent. I like Avril Lavigne and would go to a concert. Does that make me a groupie, a lesbian...no but it does make me feel old. Ya, that's right...old. And for some that is creepy. And, I AM OLD!!!

It was a really good show. I enjoyed the people I met. I really am a people person! Really!

BUT....

It's getting so that a person can't even have their own opinion anymore. I say if you don't like what you read on my blog then, don't come back. Simple as that. It is my opinion, it is what happened. Why would I lie, I don't know anyone out there in this blog country but a very few.

I only know that it is freedom of speech. I used no names.

And now stop stalking me!!!

Please, move on, find someone else to harrass! Please....

This is my blog, this is mine, mine, all mine and nobody else's but mine! ( Please read this with your best whiny voice in mind and maybe stomp your foot!)

Sheesh.