I'm still here!!

Oh Heavens...where to begin!
Well, I have been seeing a great guy now for the past 2 months...finally, a quirly sense of humour!! YAY!
Legs called me last night...drunk I might add and wanted me to go with him and FIVE other women to the Hallowe'en dance...whaddya think my answer was!? I was dumbfounded (is that all one word?) whatever.

Did he seriously think I was going to go?

He has issues.

These past two months have been crazy. The Community Theatre group that I belong to is hosting a one act festival and I am finding that I can't remember things that need to be done. Even when I write it down. One more weekend then it will be all over with. I am mainly stressing about the participants arriving. Once that is done on the Thursday, it will wind down...I hope.

My mom is coming up that weekend and the "new" man in my world will also be attending and I have seated them both together...well next to Bruno and Wilma...I will be lucky to sit next to them all.

I also have volunteered my mom to do another one of her paintings for the silent auction. I can hardly wait to see it. She dosen't like it but then what artist is ever really happy with their work. I mean really and truly, there is always "something" not quite right or may be should have added this or taken that away and so on....

I have also been asked to go t o a black tie event on the 21st, so I MUST pick out the perfect dress. I have always enjoyed these types of events. All the networking, socializing and hoity-toitiness of it all. Ahhhh, why wasn't I born rich instead of good looking?

I am still alive, just so rotten busy. The boss has resigned here at work and I have had to take on other duties. I was informed that a raise will be in my favour in the new year! Good. I say!

I'm not going home for Thanksgiving. There is no point really. Everybody is working. I thought it was a holiday?

Well, I guess I could put my name in to work at the hell job. I don't really want to.

I often ponder why I wasn't born rich instead of good looking? I suppose if I could find my dead beat of a father and hit him up for all those years of missed child support. I could maybe clean up my credit card debt, or buy a house, or go on a luxurious vacation. If I could have asked my grandfather BEFORE he pass on..."Grapa, how is it you can turn a dollar into a hundred?" He seemed to be able to do that....I will never know. If I could oh, I don't know...predict the future or find a Sports Almanac like Biff did in Back to the Future, I could be rich too right now. If I could find a very rich, good looking, sugar daddy....well that would be alright too!

But I, am not rich....I am good looking (I guess) and that' is just the way it goes!!

Plug away, work, work, work.

Up and coming...

Well, I just spent a week in Toon Town learning how to massage a horse. Yes, some human parts apply! It was a very interesting week. I learned about muscles, bones, trigger points, stress points and how to calm myself before starting on the horse. I passed all tests with flying colours and the actual hands on was a breeze!

I am now a certified Equine Massage Therapist, and now have applied to another course on Equine Appraisals. I am hoping to take this course during the winter so then by Spring all is done and I can quit my hell job.

As for the dating scene...I have another date tonight. I have been "seeing" this certain gentleman for a couple of weeks now. He is quite nice, thoughtful and polite. He has a 4 year old daughter, which makes me a bit nervous. I haven't met her yet and have informed him that I have never dated someone with kids before! He was pretty good about it and I guess we'll take things one step at a time, which....is just fine with me.

On the other hand....I talked to Legs today and I am renting a truck to get the remainder of my belongings from his farm on Saturday so.....I have to be nice until then.....I hate being nice to people I loathe! I absolutely detest this, this creature on two legs! It goes against my every being to be nice. There are not too many people on this earth that I hate and he is one of them.

Meanwhile, back at the ranch....

Well, the lunch date with the dude from Battletown didnt work out....this is good! Actually, things were backed up here at work and I had to cancel out. I didn't have a good gut feeling about this guy, so I was thankful that there was work to be done!



I did go last night out to dinner, then there was a movie to go to but yesterday at work, I decided to go and get a toffee coffee and I was about half done when the trigger pulled and a migraine started. Damn toffee coffee, guess I won't have that again....anyway, I cut the dinner and a movie short and just went to dinner. It was nice, the lights were low and there were no loud noises! We did make arrangements to try the movie thing again. See how it goes....

Tad turned out to be a dud! Good to find out now! Well, we just separated the men from the cowboys once again!

Carry on McDuff!

Movin' on....

Well, since Tad, fell through, I am daring to head out there again....ahh the trials and tribulations of a kitty kat in training - yup thats right, Cougar status is around the corner!

My next date is this Thursday, I head to VagueVille, which is about an hour away. I decided to meet him on his ground then that way, if the "date" goes to the crapper, I can leave. I am getting wiser in all of this.

I laughed this morning, when I checked out my two regular sites to see if I had any emails and the one man I said no to discreetly on one site, found me on another, emailed me and asked why I closed the match. I am thinking to myself...what does he care. I never even met this person! So I emailed him back and told him that he had a few things up against him. A) he lived in the city - ummmmm farm girl here...how does that work? Would you like the horse and chickens in town?? B). He had ZERO interest in animals....ummmm?? DUH? and C) He didn't like cultural events....ummmmm, the arts is my full time job, now I don't expect a person to love everything, because I sure don't, but this guy would at least have to have a tolerance for it and he didn't. Have a nice life buddy and move on.

I thought it was weird that he tracked me down...ahhh this too shall pass.

Tomorrow I have a lunch date with a man from Battletown. We have a mutual friend who decided to try matchmaking! I am not holding out for much hope as this man too, lives in the city. He may be a nice guy, but he's not for me.


This weekend I am invited to a movie premiere in Saskabush, a theatre friend and I are going to attend. Both films are filmed in Saskatchewan and have Julia Armond, Bill Pullman and Jeremy Irons acting in the one film and haven't heard yet who is in the other.

Ahhhh, what to wear?

Wonder if I should dust off my tiara?

Good news!

Well, it has been confirmed that a clothing fashion designer who designs Native Wear is branching out and is taking her talents to a new high. She has decided to branch out and do an all round ladies line. She was looking to do the photo shoot of her new line in a setting with lots of trees, rivers...well, ok and or creeks! and horses and a friend of ours recommended us to her and she is now using our farm and horses in her shoot!

We are super excited as with will show off our herd of spotted friends and the scenic valley we live in.

Too cool!

The Year of Me

I sometimes forget that there really are people like me out there. I am the person who can not stop thinking, I think and think and think and it gets exhausting. A person who does this uses up ALOT of energy. Whether we think its good for us or not and really its not good energy at all.

I have been upfront with Tad about certain subjects and have come to find out that he too over thinks. Not as much as I do, but he does. This guy is cautious and I can't say as I blame him. I am too but in a different way and on different subjects like the love for my horses and such...very touchy subject!

So when I asked Tad what was going on in his head, he explained to me that he is quite shy, and he is! I have honestly never dated someone so shy before but anyway.....he is a pretty nice guy and things are progressing.

I have also had another "date" with a....I can't say a gentleman, nor can I say a neanderthal but somewhere in between. He is polite. He is not a snappy dresser. He has not looked after himself well, and I kinda have a peeve about the pictures that are used as "profile" pics. If its a pic that you are 20 years old in and are now 35 years old....well, you don't really look 20 anymore and well, it was kind of a shock, when he introduced himself....he didn't look anything like his picture.

Turn off!

Thank Heaven it was only a coffee date. Needless to say it was short lived date.

I joined another couple of "free" sites!! SCARY!!!!!! I deleted my account about 15 minutes after I was on. Almost nightmare status!

Tad called me yesterday and came in for supper. It was a good meeting and I do think there is potential there. I am weighing the pros and cons on this one. Let me just say, I am so much wiser now.

I have another coffee date later this week. Will see how that one goes!

I can't say that things have gone wrong at all. I am not committed to anyone nor am I getting married tomorrow, but I am having fun, I am not hurting myself or anyone else, and will see how things go.

It's getting pretty busy at work now and I am sure I will once again be married to the job and the dating scene will slow down for me....

Until then the adventure continues...................


Don't worry Poopsie my friend, all is well!

what next?

So this online dating thing is different.

I have had three dates with Tad and all has gone well...except for last night.
I have been given flowers.....which I haven't had in years and years. It was a nice surprise.

Last night I was went to the movies and when he dropped me off at my place, he came inside and I guess I asked him something a few nights ago which made him think I wanted to get married tomorrow. NOW, my idea of dating...and correct me if I am wrong cuz I AM outta the loop on this, but I thought dating was talking about different subjects, past, present and future...to make sure each is on the right track and can get along. My idea is that if I get bad vibes, then were done right off the bat. If I get a good energy about that person, then I throw caution to the wind and say let's give it a try. If things go off really good the first couple of dates, then I shut down all other communication that I have with other potetial and concentrate on putting energy into the current situation.

I see things in black and white. I try to see shades of grey but that tends to get all muddled and blurry. If you can put everything out on the table, at least you know where you stand and can go from there. I refuse to sit around and hem and haw. I have a direction for myself and I think it's pretty clear. Whether or not it includes Tad, well only time will tell, but if he is not in the game then he needs to be benched.

We were sitting on the couch gabbing and Tad tells me that he wants to take things slow and not get so serious. I'm fine with that, but at the same time, if I am gonna see you, then I'm gonna SEE you and only you. I wasn't quite sure how to take it, so this morning I asked him what his deal was...

I'm still waiting on an answer.

I hate dating.