Prayers

Well, the next step from here is up.

Im cranky, upset, and just don't want to be here at this job any more. I have given three years, and for what?
I have been disrespected by the tech and stage manager on more than one occasion...nothing has ever been done. They tech manager is padding his hours...what?...yes, he still works here.
The stage manager is rude, and obnoxious and that is to clients as well. He decided to use one of my ornaments as a hammer to "tack" down a piece of tile that was sticking up in the office and broke my ornament. Too lazy to get a hammer? I know, let's use one of Fairy Mae's things to use...I don't like her anyway...
I have been asked to leave the stage area on more than one occasion, eventhough I was in there to do my job. I have been bullied long enough.
I can not continue this. I mentally can not take the crap anymore. When I bring this up to the former acting manager, who is a board memeber, I get "we'll look into it." When Rodney broke my ornament and they all stood there and watched, I got "you sould be use to him by now." I didn't get an apology...nothing.

I have informed my new boss, that I am checking out. I will no longer be nice to Rodney, so don't look for it, don't expect it. I am looking for another job.

It makes me very sad to know that I went from loving this job, all the marketing ideas, the avenues it opened, the great people I have met along the way, the childhood mentors I was able to meet like Valdy and Tommy Hunter, my love for music, theatre and dance - gone. Soured. Made all possible first and foremost, by two assholes that still and I would imagine will always work here, chasing away the people who want to work here, want to be here. Soured, from working my ass 12 hours straight for three or more weeks in a row, no thank you, kiss my ass, or go to hell, with no relief help, soured from endless gas mileage from not having any days off...just fed up and soured.

Its just too sad and it breaks my heart.

Thank you Rodney and John for being such a pain in my lily white ass for 3 years...you have earned it. I hope you make others around miserable until the board finally realizes its you, and then justice will prevail.

Amen...

Ten Commandments

I understand the ten commandments.

The Ten Commandments (Exodus 20:2-17)
1	“I am the Lord your God, who brought you out of the land of Egypt, out of the house of bondage. You shall have no other gods before Me.
2	“You shall not make for yourself a carved image, or any likeness of anything that is in heaven above, or that is in the earth beneath, or that is in the water under the earth; you shall not bow down to them nor serve them. For I, the Lord your God, am a jealous God, visiting the iniquity of the fathers on the children to the third and fourth generations of those who hate Me, but showing mercy to thousands, to those who love Me and keep My Commandments.
3	“You shall not take the name of the Lord your God in vain, for the Lord will not hold him guiltless who takes His name in vain.
4	“Remember the Sabbath day, to keep it holy. Six days you shall labor and do all your work, but the seventh day is the Sabbath of the Lord your God. In it you shall do no work: you, nor your son, nor your daughter, nor your male servant, nor your female servant, nor your cattle, nor your stranger who is within your gates. For in six days the Lord made the heavens and the earth, the sea, and all that is in them, and rested the seventh day. Therefore the Lord blessed the Sabbath day and hallowed it.
5	“Honor your father and your mother, that your days may be long upon the land which the Lord your God is giving you.
6	“You shall not murder.
7	“You shall not commit adultery.
8	“You shall not steal.
9	“You shall not bear false witness against your neighbor.
10	“You shall not covet your neighbor's house; you shall not covet your neighbor's wife, nor his male servant, nor his female servant, nor his ox, nor his donkey, nor anything that is your neighbor's

Does this cover not having any chocolate, potato chips, candy or pop, popcorn with butter and salt, or an extra helping of potatoes and gravy ?

Drama

I want to be a kid again because the only drama I faced was every once in awhile my Barbie's head would pop off.

Billy The Exterminator

I had a night off last night!!!

I was pretty excited...the GM said "go home Fairy Mae..." and Fairy Mae left on a dead run out the door.

I thought Buster and I could catch a bit of Billy when I got home, but alas they were all re-runs...

Im kinda stuck of some of that reality TV...its a shame really, but thats all thats ever on anymore when I get home.

The Amazing Race, Survivor, Billy, Hell's Kitchen, Kitchen Nightmares...ugggh. Can it be?

I really love Big Bang Theory but I can never catch it on time. Bones, Lie to Me, Law & Order UK and Los Angeles. I find if I miss too many, I can't catch up...

Do I really watch that much? I admit that I do have the TV on most of the time, but lots of times I am doing something else in another room and like it on for noise sake.

I did watch a movie the other day with a dog as the main character. I was about to change the channel when my dog, Effie caught sight of it and then I had to leave it there for her to watch. Since when does a dog lay infront of the TV and watch a two hour movie?

Seriously.

Something's Got to Give....

My days turn into evenings here at work...there has been a new GM, but nothing seems to be changing.

I'm burnt out, grouchy and have started to look for other job opportunities...it makes me so sad because I really do love my job. Last night I had yet another childhood dream fulfilled and knowing that this may never happen any more literally breaks my heart.

The GM is here, but seems to not be able to stand her ground in rule changes around here. She wants to impliment them but with such a strong presence around us, it seems like the light at the end of the tunnel grows farther and farther away. I am not sure how much more of these long, long days I can put in mentally and I know the new GM, won't stand for it. My worries are now that we seem to be at a stand still, she will quit.

I have my performance review on Monday and I am skeptical at this point that there will be changes. The GM knows where I am coming from but if I don't see changes to my work schedule and a raise then I really will have to put my nose to the grind and find another job...and that, I am not looking forward to.

Ugh.

November 11, 2010

For you.....

Ranting: conversations in a group

Ive noticed a while ago that when I attend a function, a gathering, or a group large or small, that if I am not included in the conversation, I end up zoning out or walking away.

You can't be mad at me because I've done my best to fit in with a nod or a grunt...you can't fault me for zoning out or walking away...you've done nothing to me? I've done nothing to you!

So, why get annoyed with me when you don't get the answer from me you want when I have no idea what you were talking about. I may have been there in body but unless you look at me when talking to others and include me in that particular conversation, then and only then will I indulge in the gathering, group or likewise...geez

I'm getting used to not being included in conversations, gatherings and so forth...does it bother me? A little. It makes me feel invisible. It makes me feel like in not worthy of your time.
If it makes me feel like that, why stay? If it makes me feel bad about myself and makes me feel useless, why would I allow myself to stay in that situation. You don't want to talk to me and include me, thats your deal, but don't get pissy when I do it to you! Kinda hurts the soul a wee bit.

SO think about it in your next group type setting....make sure you say hi to everyone and include them in your conversation, even if you don't know their names. They are there for a reason.

Make them feel welcome too.

WOW!

Ok, so the Paw is officially and painfully over. The next play to be pulled off is this weekend at the seniors centre..."On Golden Pond".

I just came back from yet another year of theatre. The One act Festival called TheatreOne was held in Melfort over the weekend. 9 plays over 3 days. It was a great little mini vacation. I was able to stay with Peanut all weekend and was also able to hang out with Dave & Moe as well. The only thing that I had a wee bit of a problem with, well two problems really, was that I had a shadow who followed me most places...and the other was taht I didn't get to see a whole lot of Wilma.

I was also a little perturbed about a few things along the way as well, but this too shall pass. The great thing about is, that I only see some of these people once a year and I am not married to them which is even better, so once is enough.

There is one person there that is really starting to rub me the wrong way. He is a smart ass 24/7 and has really only stupid stories to tell. I never know if he is really serious about topics he talks about...is his home life really that bad that he has to cover as a smart ass all the time? Im not sure, but the less I ran into him over the weekend the happier I was.

Peanut and I did manage to smooze a few wee drinkies out of 4 hockey players while in the hot tub and was quite happy when it was time to get out.

All in all though, it was a fab weekend and this December its going to be Christmas at my house with Peanut and Wilma...I can't wait!

WOW!!!!
My two best friends in the world are comin!

The Monkey's Paw

Tonight is full dress rehearsal for a very scattered cast and crew. I've got directors coming from every which way and tomorrow is thee day!

I am at the point to where I'm not too sure about the whole thing. It seems this poor play was cursed from the very get go and nothing seems to be working for us still.

Our little actors have memorized until they are blue in the face. I've had committed actors memorizing the script but never showing up for practice, yet of all the rehearsals that we have had, they seem to be pulling it off when they do show, but are now throwing the other actors off because the others just got used to them not being there....sigh. Did I mention the cast before this one buggared off to do Rocky!!??

I've got one actor whispering lines to everyone and late for her own, I've got the lights man telling me which chair the main actor should sit in, I've got my props lady coming over to me and pointing out to me that the actors are not following the stage directions that are in the book! AARRGGGHHHH...too many directors and not enough actors. Oh, did I mention that the little high school student who was supposed to run lights, never did show up and when he did, he wanted me to sign the paper to his teacher saying he WAS there for all the rehearsals!! That didn't happen! I'm hoping he failed!

I am now doing sound, prompting, set construction and making damn good and sure there is a double caesar waiting for me in the wings when its all over!!!

I am praying that they will have a great run tonight.

You're right! I don't get it!

So, if everyone else gets sympathy cards signed by the office when their loved ones pass on and I am one of them that signs my name to the card,(being office staff and all)...how come I didn't get one when there was a death in my family?

I don't get it?