Good Grief!

Well, Legs is in a mid life crisis and I am taking the brunt of it.

Why is it I have to hook up with the guys who are going through "the change"!?

And for those men out there who say, you don't go through it, you better not say it to me! I have witnessed it not once, but twice and this little ole heart o mine is not going to be able to handle much more of it. I mean really!

Hell, I haven't even gone through it yet!! WTF!

The "ex" told me that he needed a change and wasn't ready to retire and didn't want to be married anymore, but that I could still live in the house with him! Are you kidding! You don't want me to be a part of your life, but I can still live in the same house...ummmm....NO.

NOW, "the better half" is going through his own, dealing with the family farm, selling off quarters of land, hating his job and I'm the one he's thinking of dumping! I just thought that I was the only thing stable in his chaotic life, but as it turns out, I'm not. I'm the cause of it, cuz now he is getting cold feet in having to settle down and start to make a life with someone. BUT, he doesn't want to break up cuz HE thinks that "we" will be alright, so in the mean time I am thinking...am I in or am I out?

Talk about a great weight loss regime!

....and I am a basket case.

Set it free

If you love something, set it free.
If it comes back, it is yours.
If it doesn't, it never was.
-Anonymous

Isn't it funny how life repeats itself.

First with my mom when my dad left and never came back.

The set it free poem was always present in my life. My mom had this poster on her wall in her bedroom. She said it reminded her of my dad.

I have never forgotten that day, nor the poem...as, secondly, it always seems to be ever apparent in my own life.

When is it gonna end.

Vegas...or bust.

Ohhhh, how I would love to go to Vegas, but I simply can not.
I am taking an Equine Massage Therapy course the week before and I just can't make it work. I thought I would go, and then I looked at the Calendar....not. gonna. happen....I asked the better half if he was interested...I was turned down, he said it will be harvest by then since things are so late. I get that.

I was going to the Minot State Fair to see my first ever pig show, but thats been scrapped too. Apparently what there is for hay, will need to be cut and baled so....I'm not impressed to say the least.

I honestly am getting the impression that the better half doesn't want to go anywhere with me.

He wants to go hunting in November, but nowhere with me. Well, I have played that card before in my previous marriage. If that's the case, well then it is what it is, and I will go with my friends instead.

I don't think I'm that much of a bother. I mean, I know I can't read a map worth a damn, and I can get lost without any effort, and I know I am not the brightest penny in the jar, and I might complain a time or two, but I think my travelling companions are basically happy with my presence?

Anyway, if I didn't have the course then I, yes I! would be on that plane, by myself, going.

Keep me in mind for future...I'll try not to take any more week long courses!!!

New way to exercise

Well, this past week and some I went home. To the farm. Would you like to know what I did?

I pounded about 20 posts in with a 16 pound sledge...on the second day, I found my muscles...or rather, they found me!

Along with me cousin, we fixed miles of fence, created another wood fence and pounded out a wall and then proceeded to create another.

We shovelled loads and loads of manure and that was only half the barn, we stacked bales and cleaned and mowed the yard! Im talking push mower people! No riding mower this year!

We stacked pallates for the fence mom is intending to build.

We sorted horses, and weaned two not very happy colts.

We dug out the fire pit and made it deeper!!
It was great to see a huge bon fire in the evenings!

We were very busy.

As for the exercise.... I only managed to lose two pounds but lost 3 inches of my bust, 2 inches off my waist, lost most of my back fat! and lost 2 1/2 inches off my butt/thigh area!

I worked hard this past week. I played only last Friday and that was at the bar for steak night.

I did enjoy the company during the work week at home and sitting around the bon fires drinking a well deserved beer.

I think I'll do it again in about three weeks.