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1). being proud of the fact that I looked after myself!

2). Daffodils - spring is here?

3). The "Here Vicki" bird, singing her song in the trees.

4). Farm sitting for a week.

5). talking to my dog on the phone and then listening to her happy "talk"back to me. Breaks my heart. I miss her so much.

Can it get any better?

Yesterday, I took the day off.

I cleaned out my closet and was finally able to let the two dresses that I wore to my grama and grapas funeral go.

Grapa has been gone now for 12 years and my grama 4 years. I am proud of myself.
The dresses were nice, outta date, but still held that pain.

I let it go.

Today....
Today is a different story.

I started my car and drove one block from my place. The back seat is loaded with 3 garbage bags. Two containing the clothes from the closets and one bag has my bottles and cans in it.

The car sputtered, and stalled. Great.

I call Legs. He should be at work, he works on vehicles and machinery, he might have some insight on what could be wrong, PLUS, I am a little panicky because I am NOT in the good part of town.

Why is it, that when there is something wrong with your vehicle and you call the better half, YOU GET SHIT! Why?

It's not my fault the car stalled, its not my fault I am where I am.

I asked him what his CAA number was so I could call the tow truck and get it taken to MY mechanic. Well, he started cussing and swearing and ranting...and then when I barked back, he got mad at me for being outta control. All I asked was for the CAA number!

So, I hung up on him.

What the hell?

He called back and I really debated on answering it, but I answered anyway. I got his CAA number and THEN I hung up! Screw him!

I am sick to death of being talked to like I am stupid, dumb, and an idiot. I may not be the brightest person alive, but gimme SOME credit.

SO, I am stranded on the bad side of town!

My landlord just happened to be driving by and stopped. He offered to take me to the CAA truck towing place so I hopped in.

I made arrangements and got him to drop me back off at me car.

I waited for the tow truck and am still trying to re-start my little blue smurf turd car, but no luck.

I then called the boss, he came and picked me up, in the meantime I texted Legs and told him that I was not speaking to him anymore if he continued to talk to me like I was an idiot and that Oh by the way, I got the house plans done and since I was inconveniencing HIM, that I was making the changes on the house and if he wanted to "discuss" the plans he could call me at work.

AND I called CAA and bought my OWN card, with my OWN number!!!


I was quite proud of myself....again.

I got to work, and Legs called.

He asked me how I made out. I told him fine...and said nothing more.

I faxed the house plans to his dad's place and told him that's what I did, if there were changes, he could fax me back here at work and that I was not discussing anything further with him until his attitude changed and hung up.

I haven't heard from him yet today.

Great.

And how was YOUR day?

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1). Having a crisis and rather the better half rescuing you, your landlord does.

2). Having the boss buy you dinner, cuz he feels bad for you.

3). Having a great mechanic who gives you deals cuz your single, left by your mean rotten ex. (well that's what he thinks)

4). Having the FOH mgr. take you home tonight after the show is over.

5). Having a great box office guru looking up CAA numbers for you, while you are stranded with no phone book.

Changes.

I remember when I was about four and my mom dropped the babysitter and I off at the new Flintstones' movie at the theater uptown. I had serious abandonment issues when I was little, with "the father" dumping us and plus I was on meds that were not "meshing", so I was not only messed up emotionally, but my drugs were working against me as well.

After mom dropped us off, she had some shopping to do uptown. I knew she would be at the Co-op. The babysitter and I went in, bought tickets, sat down, and she took off her jacket and was about to take off mine, when I went into this "fit". I bolted. I ran out of the movie theater and ran, and ran. Now this is small town Saskatchewan and everybody knew everybody.

I ran, and ran scream crying down the sidewalk, screaming for my mom. My arms were outstretched in front of me and it seemed like I ran forever. My babysitter caught up with me and I was hysterical. She caught me at the corner of the 4-way stop. I remember people just staring at me like I was nuts. I was hollering for my mom and for her not to leave me.

At 37, in my head, I still feel like I am running. Scream crying with my arms out infront of me, not knowing where to go, having no idea on how to get there. I am not sure "where" is.

Lost.

I always feel lost.



I gotta make some changes 'round here.

Today is the day.

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1.) a day off

2). Sleeping in

3). and afternoon nap

4). pancakes

5). Monday night t.v.

Frost warning!

The forecast for work today is a little chilly.

Make sure if you step inside, not to remove any scarves, coats or mittens. It is well below zero indoors.

If you have extra earmuffs, slippers and socks please ration and hand out if absolutely necessary.

I repeat, work today - a little chilly!

DO NOT GO INDOORS! Hazardous to your health. Cover all exposed skin areas!

This just in.....

This picture was just dropped off at our location - the box office.

This photo was taken upstairs in the lightning tech room!

Whew!!! Very chilly up there!!!

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1). believe it of not...the cafereria food at the College.

2). a fab hair day

3). left over stew

4). the hole in my car getting fixed

5). earrings

Funny

Yesterday was the day that "J" was going to have me fired.

Well.

I am still here.

"J", however, made an ass of himself infront of us all, including the board members.

He is not a happy camper today.


Awwwww.....