Only Child Syndrome

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The fact is this...I am a LATE thirty-something, an only child with one living parent and I hate, by the way, being an only child.

I am a drama queen and I know it, and I love it and I won't change it!

I am finally in a career that I love and I finally found someone special, just for me and my dramatic nature!

I am a horse lover. I love and ride Appaloosa horses.

I am and artsy-farts and love all aspects of the Arts and Culture. I am an Independent Stylist for Stella & Dot and love the jewels.

I have a dog who is my four legged baby, her name is Effie and I have another three legged baby and her name is Daisy.

Monday, June 30, 2008

Packed


Well, I am packed and ready to go.


Gigi, my little travelling companion is ready. Her food bowl is stocked and her water is filled. I am sure she will sleep most of the way. I have one more stop to make and that is to the farm. Legs is going to change the oil, fill the car, and check the tires before I head out.


I told him that the rodeo will be on this weekend at home. Apparently he has decided that he will be making the long trek to attend the rodeo/dance and to help me out at the farm for a couple of days. We are also getting a few horses broke, one of which is his and he wants to see how is little gelding is making out.


Mom has informed me that the post pounder has been rented and the neighbours are coming to help if I cook supper.


I think I can handle that!






Friday, June 27, 2008

Going Home

Well, there are only a few more sleeps left before I head for home.

My beloved mother keeps telling me how much there is to do when I get there and quite frankly, I am dreading the thought of going home. Home is a place where it is a comfort zone. Where you can just "be". I don't have that feeling anymore. In fact, I hate the thought of going home. It doesn't feel like home to me anymore. I am always running, running, running.

The place is the shambles, the animals run amuck, and everything is always left for me to do when I get there. The family then expects me to go to them on their command and whim and I can only stretch so far. I find it stressful, frustrating and sad. It shouldn't be that way. It never used to be that way. Why is it now?

I never seem to be able to get off the farm to go visit my friends, to go out with others, and when I do I know that the old Kraut in mother kicks in and I am up at the crack of dawn doing something ridiculous that could have waited til mid-morning. I don't think she or the family realizes that I am grown up, I am not 12.

I often think that if I had a family that I would be treated differently. My cousin who is like a sister to me has 3 kids and a husband and she gets outta all kinds of stuff, but not me! Single and no kids. Who knew??!!

There is one thing I know for sure and that is, when I get back I will be needing a few days off!

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

The Happening


Movie Critic Time....




Yup, went to see it last night.


It was different. Marky Mark. Gotta say, I have seen better acting. If you want to think Marky boy is a great actor. I liked him much better in Planet of the Apes. Betty Buckley was in the movie. Kinda nice to see her. I think the last time I saw her was on an episode of Eight is Enough.....that my friends was a LONG, LONG time ago. She plays an eccentric woman living by herself in an uninfected area. Or so we think....


Anyway. I am glad it I saw it on Tightwad Tuesday and only paid 6 bucks to see it. It would have been a hard swallow if I would have had to pay 10 bucks. It truly is a renter.

A good day.

Today is a good day and here is why:
1). The Taz is here and is visiting me. We have not seen each other in a little over 12 years.
2). My car is working again.
3). All people who work with me are on holidays so that means I can pick my own hours.
4). The house plans are coming together VERY well. My piano will have a home soon.
5). I work at the hell job this weekend but the good news is that the tickets for Sawyer Brown went on sale which means I will get two free ones because I work at the hell job.

YAY!

Monday, June 23, 2008

A happy gurl!

Fairy Mae is a very happy gurl today. In fact she was even a happy gurl last night. The Tas is here.....after 12 years and a health scare, she has made it back to Saskatchewan to see her old pal Fairy Mae. The Tas hasn't changed one bit...no...not one bit!

Living in Toronna now, she doesn't "see" the sky much any more! I can not imagine, but anyway...all she can comment on is being able to see the b-e-a-utiful sky. I don't know what she is talking about, I mean it is Saskatchewan after all....the land of the living sky. OF COURSE there is sky here. Hell, it is flat land with the amber waves of grain and sky....and maybe the odd dog running here and there...

Today, we are heading to the North Saskatchewan River so she can take some pics with her newly purchased camera.

Gosh, I have missed her! There is no way we can let another 12 years go by before we see each other again, just no way.

Friday, June 20, 2008

Off to trot

Well, this weekend I am off to Edmonton..yup...Stifler's Mom and I are heading to her sister's. I plan on having a beer and clam in my hand as soon as I hit BonBon's apartment until the time I leave. I don't plan on becoming dippy drunk, just reasonably sauced. We are heading to some Ukrainain Dance Troupe for entertainment tonight then tomorrow night it is off to The Gallery?! Never heard of it but I am sure it will be fun. I guess it is what you make of it.

Legs will be at home getting the basement dug for the pending house. Or so I have been told (with a side of guilt trip). Ahhh, he'll get over it!

3 things that highly annoy me today:
1). Random thinkers....I just can't keep up with the constant subject change today.
2). Know-it-alls...ummm John??
3). People who I know don't like me, and yet pretend they do and insist on trying to have a conversation with me, which I KNOW that just as soon as I am done talking to them, they will turn around to the next guy and start talking about how much they can't stand me. Does that make sense?....John??? Rodney???

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

horse before the cart

So I'm just taking a chance here, but I think it is safe to say that Fairy Mae has won the bet.
I feel better, I'm not so happy about the boob lossage, but I am pleased to see that damn back-ass go. You know the flab under the bra line on your back. I hated that. It really bothered me. Most of it is gone now. That is a good thing.

There are three people that I would like to thank:
Bruno and Wilma...not sure who's idea this was. It was a good one.
and lastly....Paul McKenna...yup....The I can make you thin guru. He was right.

1). When you are hungry-eat
2). Eat what you want
3). When you feel full-stop ( be aware of your stomach telling you when you are full)
4). Put you fork down in between mouthfuls and chew slowly
5). Exercise at least twice a week.

By heavens! It works. 10 pounds and still going.....

Monday, June 16, 2008

WILLLLMMMMMAAAAAAA!!


Happy Yesterday Birthday Wilma. What did you do? Who did you do it with? You know, I have all the pinata stuff. SO....when and if we can get together we will have to bash the ever-living crap out of the poor donkey!


Hope you had a great day and Puffy lavished you!!!..with favours and all the right things!


(FYI: the GS on the cake...."Good Stuff")

Friday, June 13, 2008

still talking, still building

Well we are getting closer to getting thee house built. Legs and I have had just minor disagreements but all in all...its been good.

I have had to be the one to get all estimates, tallies and samples together. That is very stressful. I am really wondering if the RTM was the better choice.

I have had two salesmen try to talk me into something that I DID NOT want. Finally, I asked them if they were going to be living in this new house...their answer was silence...I think I am finally growing a backbone here. Now, its just getting all of it to come together. They say that we will be in the house by fall. We have to be...my piano is in the shed!!

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

This explains alot!!

So...I stumbled on to this web site and thought it rather interesting.....
What your name means...

There are 16 letters in your name.Those 16 letters total to 70.

There are 8 vowels and 8 consonants in your name. What your first name means:
Hebrew
Female
Variant of Susannah: Graceful lily.

German
Female
'Lily' Variant of Hebrew Susannah. In the apocryphal Book of Tobit Susannah courageously defended herself against wrongful accusation. White lilies grew in the Biblical city of Susa in Persia.

French
Female
Lily. Variant of Hebrew Susannah. In the apocryphal Book of Tobit Susannah courageously defended herself against wrongful accusation. White lilies grew in the Biblical city of Susa in Persia.

Your number is: 7
The characteristics of #7 are: Analysis, understanding, knowledge, awareness, studious, meditating.

The expression or destiny for #7:Thought, analysis, introspection, and seclusiveness are all characteristics of the expression number 7.

The hallmark of the number 7 is a good mind, and especially good at searching out and finding the truth. You are so very capable of analyzing, judging and discriminating, that very little ever escapes your observation and deep understanding. You are the type of person that can really get involved in a search for wisdom or hidden truths, often becoming an authority on whatever it is your are focusing on. This can easily be of a technical or scientific nature, or it may be religious or occult, it matters very little, you pursue knowledge with the same sort of vigor. You can make a very fine teacher, or because of a natural inclination toward the spiritual, you may become deeply emerged in religious affairs or even psychic explorations. You tend to operate on a rather different wavelength, and many of your friends may not really know you very well. The positive aspects of the 7 expression are that you can be a true perfectionist in a very positive sense of the word. You are very logical, and usually employ a quite rational approach to most things you do. You can be so rational at times that you almost seem to lack emotion, and when you are faced with an emotional situation, you may have a bit of a problem coping with it. You have excellent capabilities to study and learn really deep and difficult subjects, and to search for hidden fundamentals. At full maturity you are likely to be a very peaceful and poised individual.

If there is an over supply of the number 7 in your makeup, the negative aspects of the number may be apparent. The chief negative of 7 relates to the limited degree of trust that you may have in people. A tendency to be highly introverted can make you a bit on the self-centered side, certainly very much self-contained . Because of this, you are not very adaptable, and you may tend to be overly critical and intolerant. You really like to work alone, at your own pace and in your own way. You neither show or understand emotions very well.

Your Soul Urge number is: 4
A Soul Urge number of 4 means: With the Soul Urge or Motivation number of 4 you are likely to strive for a stable life. You tend to follow a rather orderly pattern and systematic approach in your endeavors. You have an inner desire to serve others in a methodical and diligent manner. You want to be in solid, conventional, and well-regulated activities, and you are somewhat disturbed by innovation and erratic or sudden changes. Excellent at organizing, systematizing, and managing, you have a way of establishing order and maintaining it. You are responsible, reliable and in the final analysis, practical. Highly analytical, you can see your way through all sorts of situations and generally have a clear understanding of the issues. You are a very honest, sincere, and conscientious individual.

The negative side of the 4 is rigid, stubborn and somewhat narrow-minded. There is a tendency to hide feelings, or to really not be aware of real feelings. Avoid being too rigid and stubborn in your thinking, and try to always see the big picture rather than becoming to involved with the detail. Don't be afraid to take a chance once in awhile.

Your Inner Dream number is: 3

An Inner Dream number of 3 means: You dream of artistic expression; writing, painting, music. You would seek to more freely express your inner feeling and obtain more enjoyment from life. You also dream of being more popular, likable, and appreciated.

Well I guess that explains it!

Monday, June 09, 2008

Old Friends

It has been an interesting ride.
There is a poem that I remember about Friends...
There are no friends like old friends and none so dear and true, we meet them when we greet them like flowers meet the dew....

I have found old friends and have made many new ones and have even rekindled some. It has been a comfort to rekindle those ones I thought I had lost. The ones I lost through divorcing Milletime have affected me the most. They were the ones who I had been friends with for years and years. Well, half my life!

We would do things without the husbands and so I thought the bond was there. Since I have joined facebook, I have tried to request friendships with many and have been snubbed by all but two. It is sad really. Maybe they feel too awkward, or maybe they just don't like me, because of it all. But it makes me feel sad when I think back to all those times together. In Punnichy, in Moosomin, in Esterhazy, even in LaLoche. But that's ok. The two people who I missed THEE most, I have now started a friendship with again...I have found them.... and its funny how we just picked up where we left off, and to me....that's friendship.

When no matter what. They still accept you as you are, through the good and the bad.

Friday, June 06, 2008

A Stormy Forecast


For the most part things are going well here at work. We do have a meeting today with the tech director and stage director. Should be interesting. Our tech man is not the optimist that he thinks he is. In fact, whenever he runs into me, I want to run the other way! Generally I am pretty easy-going. I don't like confrontation so I try to please everyone...within reason of course. But for some reason he makes me want to jump off the stairs. He is a very negative person and I find that when I am around someone like that for long periods of time....my Aunt being one of those types of people....I find myself thinking bad thoughts. Scary stuff really, like offing myself in some way, shape or form. That's just not healthy!

So today, we have a meeting and I am not looking forward to it. Everything is going to be negative and if we don't do what Techie boy wants then a temper tanrum is thrown. However, with that being said, I do enjoy watching a 50 year old man having a fit. I see lots of humour in it, which in turn gets me into trouble after I start to giggle!

Que Sera Sera!

Thursday, June 05, 2008

Untitled

Sigh.....
Kinda down in the dumps today....
Sigh.....
Just run down I think......
Better take the afternoon off......

Wednesday, June 04, 2008

The Flood


Not been a good week so far and today is only Wednesday!


Monday: computer down

Tuesday: computer down and flood

Wednesday: Aftermath of flood


Yesterday as I was on my way out the door and out box office Guru was in the box office wrapping things up and the boss was in his office....I was talking to both of them as I was leaving. There was a noise coming from the coffee machine and I asked the Guru if she was making coffee which I thought was odd seeing as how it was the end of the day. Guru said no she was not and we both turned to "look" at the coffee machine and while we were looking at it a gush of water came out of the cupboards!! YIKES!!! The Guru and I rushed over there while the boss sauntered in to see what the commotion was all about. Yup! Water everywhere.

We could not turn off the "taps" under the sink to shut the water off because some moron removed said "taps"...we needed a screw driver. Incidently the coffee machine is hooked up to a bunch of hoses under the counter and has water go directly into the machine from there.


As water was spewing everywhere, I then RAN to the front of the college dripping with water and the girls then called college maintenance who then came to our rescue. I RAN back to do I'm not sure what but stand there, until back up came. It was a GONG SHOW!


After they screwed shut the said "taps", all water ceased...except for the water dripping off of our clothes. Good thing it was a nice day yesterday, I got some fairly funny looks while driving home in sopping wet clothes!

Tuesday, June 03, 2008

Words

Leadership is based on inspiration, not domination; on cooperation, not intimidation.

Its a pretty good quote.

I have been assigned the task of being chairperson, and president of a few things around here in the Border Town.

I am not a leader. I like teamwork. Since I have been designated leader for a few things, that quote above is how, in my mind at least, I like to do things. To inspire and to cooperate. Yes, I realize that I have to take the bull by the horns every once in awhile. I am ok with that, as long as I have the support from the rest. Not much for hanging there on my own.

Ahhhh George